I have been hard at work refinishing and repainting the cages in my little rabbitry, I like to do that every year for a deep cleaning and to freshen up the habitat. I have also just finished (finally!) repotting plants, deep trimming shrubs and netting my potted fruit trees (mini orchard) so the birds don't rob me blind. I am also looking around ebay to see what else I can add to my little homestead.
And the peppers, cherry tomatoes and grapes are coming in beautifully!
Today is going to be a lonely day, I woke up this morning very early already feeling it, the weight of it was so huge it woke me right out of my sleep. It feels like more than a state of being it feels like I'm lost out in the ocean and I may or may not drown or out in a desert and I may or may not find my way out or be found. This feeling is desolation.
I feel this way less and less since I was a kid and though it usually lasts no longer than a day, these days are the longest days of my life and the day after I am always left amazed that it was only one day. The breaths I take are heavy life I am breathing in something heavier than air, everyone seems to be moving in fast motion or I in slow motion. Even as I type this my fingers seem to be moving in slow motion and when I strike a key, it is as if I am striking them one by one, with a hammer.
Lights are too bright and sounds are to loud, but garbled as if someone has slowed them down. In a sea of people I am somehow all alone.