Today is going to be a lonely day, I woke up this morning very early already feeling it, the weight of it was so huge it woke me right out of my sleep.  It feels like more than a state of being it feels like I'm lost out in the ocean and I may or may not drown or out in a desert and I may or may not find my way out or be found.  This feeling is desolation.

I feel this way less and less since I was a kid and though it usually lasts no longer than a day, these days are the longest days of my life and the day after I am always left amazed that it was only one day.  The breaths I take are heavy life I am breathing in something heavier than air, everyone seems to be moving in fast motion or I in slow motion.  Even as I type this my fingers seem to be moving in slow motion and when I strike a key, it is as if I am striking them one by one, with a hammer. 

Lights are too bright and sounds are to loud, but garbled as if someone has slowed them down.  In a sea of people I am somehow all alone.

More than anything I wish it were tomorrow.